*life of a simple guy*

Saturday, March 29, 2008

hmmm,these few days been kinda boring.however,i kinda thought of some things.i think im finally to be able to step out of his shadow already.i was in his shadow for so long that it kinda made mi became him and not myself.since young,i was always chasing after his shadow.but all the time,it just seems so hard to reach it or even be near it.he became a huge influence in my life gradually as we grow up.however as he become an influence,i was slowly going into his shadow without realizing it.
i was always being remembered as his small brother by people around him in the past.but now,these people are seeing mi as myself and no longer as his small brother anymore.i am so glad that its changed.i think everything started to change after i entered sim and not ntu.if i am to be studying in ntu,i guess i would still be recognized as his brother and being compared to him.
this would mean that i will still be in his shadow and chasing it also.
however by entering sim,i began to step out of the shadow and become the person that i am now.in the school,i wont be seen as someone's brother and this is quite a good feeling to have.even in our soccer team now,i am so glad that im being seen as zhixiang instead of the small boy in the team compared to the past.in some ways,it made mi grow up and not as restricted anymore.
i am 22 this year already,its time for mi to become myself and to stop chasing his shadow.i am very thankful that i have such a good influence in my life.
dont think anyone will be reading this either.

posted by stephontan at 10:35 PM